Yeah. Weird title, right? But hey, it’s true. I hate Wednesdays. So much. And here’s why:
Wednesday is when I’m attacked.
See, Wednesday night is Campus Community night. And Satan doesn’t like that. He doesn’t like that I’m going to be refreshed and refilled and inspired through worship and by the Word of God. He throws something in my path every single Wednesday, without fail. He tries to stop me.
I do have to admit that I’ve given in a few times. It’s true. But don’t we all have those moments when we just… break? I know I do. And I know I’m not alone.
You’re not alone either.
Today was not one of those days, however. The whole day was just… off. I still have no clue why. I know I was being attacked, but I didn’t know how to fight back. I hate the feeling of not having any control. It kills me.
So, I had to surrender.
I left my dinner with my friends early and ran to the football stadium. I found a seat on the upper level and sat there, completely silent.
Sometimes you just have to whisper seemingly stupid stuff to yourself to pick yourself up off the ground again. I know I did.
I prayed and repelled Satan from my presence, and begged God to give me strength. And you know what? He did. I prayed for strength and vigilance to make it through the next hour, the rest of the night.
And boy am I glad I did. Campus Community was as amazing as always.
Lord prepare me
to be a sanctuary
pure and holy
tried and true
David Nasser talked about the intent and intentionality of prayer. If it’s not intentional, it’ll never happen. That struck a chord tonight, especially after my moment at the stadium. That prayer had been a desperate, intentional one.
Tonight also helped me realize just how little I actually do pray on a day-to-day basis. It’s a little scary, honestly, but hey. Most of the time you have to realize where you’re failing to figure out where you can get better.
To be honest, I don’t really know why I’m writing most of this, but that’s fine. It’s a short post, but all of this is on my heart right now. I’m going to start trying to post more regularly, but we’ll see how that works out.
Thanks for reading this, hope to see you soon! ❤